What a Year....

Wow.. I am actually sitting only a few hours away from finishing up my Spring semester... It's absolutely humbling to think about All the things you have done.

The hard times:
---Academics truly became my walk of faith. Even as I lie here reminiscing, I am in the midst of finals week. One remaining: The one that will cause me to go further in nursing or hold me back for another year. God... Am I able to say that it's terrifying. It's hard to be in this place.... but it has caused me to intentionally stop and keep my eyes on you.
---Relationships:  Father, you have given me the Best Friend in the entire world. You have blessed me with a sister, accountability partner, a confidante, and a person in whom I have been able to share this wonderful life with! But we have had some rough times this year... Character building times. You have taught us the value of communicating. The gift of honesty. You have taught me to listen and to be gentle. But Lord, I sense that there is another work at play. Sometimes when I am with Heather, there tends to be an aura of sadness, or hopelessness that overcomes me? And every time she asks me 'If I'm OK"... it only causes me to want to find something wrong? Does that make sense :) Can you help me understand why I do this Lord? Why my heart becomes downcast? I will yet praise you for remaining our center.
                             You have given me my sister back :) Though we don't talk everyday, the times that we do have been so good for my heart and I believe for hers. Thank you God for caring about my family. Thank you for not leaving us.
---Spiritual: Lord.. hmmm. I love you so much Lord, but I have failed to meet with you daily. I have settled with living off of previous mountain experiences. Jesus... I need you more than I need anything. You are the center of my joy and If I could just learn to walk in faith.. why can't I get it Lord? Bur I know that I Need to keep my eyes on you. Please give me the measure of faith today that you know I will need!

I want to repent:
       For selfishness
       For Lack of Faith
       For a Judgmental spirit
     
My hard times have been difficulty, but my Good Times:
---- Celebrated my 23rd birthday and my Best Friend threw me a beautiful gathering at Ruby Tuesdays
-----  You have given me my sister back :) Though we don't talk everyday, the times that we do have been so good for my heart and I believe for hers. Thank you God for caring about my family. Thank you for not leaving us.
---- Through your favor, I was able to purchase a car. White 2007 Ford Focus. I'm so undeserving, but I do accept!
----- My Uncle was released from prison... I have been able to fellowship with him! Thank you father!
----- Was accepted to work at UH this summer, as well as with the Outreach ministry with AFT
----- Got to attend Region 5 in Chicago and was able to bring Heather!
----- Mission trip to Florida
God there truly is so much! The good outweigh the struggles, but I know the latter must occur for maturity! I continuously accept, as long as you allow me to squeeze closer to you when I fear!

Thank you for keeping me from the hands of the enemy. For the things seen and unseen :) Thank you for loving me in spite of all the things confusing about me! For you know me better than I know myself! Hallelujah! My heart is encouraged :)