All i need is you

Today was... a revelation filled day.

I awoke this morning late this morning, jumped up at 8:19 and rushed to my 8:30 class... no breakfast no shower, no good morning father, just went...While sitting in class the only thing that i could think about was car rental car rental car rental... I needed to call them. To ask more information.
See in the past weeks, i have been trying so hard to rent a car while i am down in TX for my trip. I have many friends down there, but i didn't want to bother them, that's the last thing that they needed. I was told no at first because i did not have a credit card, and so i applied everywhere and for anything. I exalted all my energy on that. After about 3 hours straight of searching and getting stressed out, my conscious began to bother me. The Lord was speaking to me, telling me that i was being very ungratelful and conforming to the world...
About 2 months ago, i began praying that the Lord would bless me with the opportunity of going to TX.. to attend my old roomate's(Claudia's) graduation. I began praying this 2 months ago. Within one month the lord provided me with $1200.00. More than was ever expected. And i rejoiced i praised him.. But now looking back on it, i think the praise dimmered down... Because i began wanting more and more, i wanted a car as well. .
And so every car rental has turned me down because of my lack of a credit card and every credit card company has turned me down because of my lack of credit history... Is this from the Lord?
Yes it is. This is from the Lord, and not because he hates me, but he wants to show me that i am a person who takes for granted after awhile of his precious tangible gifts. Which poses the question... Would i still love him if he never gave me anything?
I want to say yes, my lips say yes, and my heart says more than yes... Because the simple fact is " That God demonstrates his own love for us, that while we were yet still sinners, Christ died for us" That is the truth, and still because i am of human nature with a flesh that still sins, the Lord dies for me over and over again by forgiving me and calling him his own
Selfish motives and greed can get in the way of many of our lives, but instead of living it that filth give it to the lord... And i found myself doing that today. Getting on my knees and just repenting and praising Yahweh.

Dear Lord,
Jesus, we call on your name everyday Lord, that you may save us from our selfishness and greed. Lord, wash this flesh which wants to be disobedient and stubborn. Lord cleanse me with your grace Lord... Without you lord, i, we, are nothing but mere dirt. Lord you move my spirit and that is why everyday i can claim that you are real, and your grace is sufficient. Lord, i pray that you would continue to bless me with wisdom , understanding and revelation. Teach me to truly love like you lord(John 15:13). Teach me to only allow things that are fruitful to exit my mouth Lord(Ephesians 4:29)... Lord let me be a love of truth and action(1 John 3:18). Lord, i love you and it is only by grace that we are saved... I love you, and all of my hope is in you.. Take this life lord and mold it to be pure in your sight... My father my lover my friend. Goodnight