Hmmm.... where do I begin? I've been feeling...been led by... drowning in the big 'E' word again :) Emotions! In the attempt to rid of the very burden that feels unbelievably heavy, I have been trying to keep busy. So that I don't have to think about it... That I don't have to be tempted to make changes. That I don't have to... feel.
But even as I sit here now, thoughts are rushing from ear to ear waiting to formulate a complete thought. Help me Lord. Please restore to me the Joy of YOUR Salvation and that alone!
I'm in a pentacostal church, yet I disagree with certain beliefs, nor have you convicted me of the Apostolic Doctrine, but I'm still here... God! I'm trying to wait... to hear what to do! But the only thing that keeps running through my mind is how much I love the people.. and the worship. Lord, I don't want to leave, but I do... but where, when, how, why, what?
But even now I hear you say to be steadfast in my pursuit of you and service to the church. Lord....help me to do this and I will obey. Teach me and I will learn. Even now I hear your Word from 2 Peter proclaim: "Therefore beloved, looking forward to these things, be diligent to be found by Him in PEACE, without spot and blameless; and consider that the long-suffering of our Lord IS salvation......but grow in the Grace and Knowledge of our Lord and Savior Jesus Christ.(2 Peter 3:14-18)
:) Wow! You WORD has brought PEACE to my heart and now I understand! Your Word stated in 2 Peter 3:16 that some things are hard to understand but not to let us forsake being Steadfast but to GROW in the Grace and Knowledge of our Lord and Savior Jesus Christ!!!!
Lord,
I commit this matter to you! It is my desire Father to continuously grow in your Grace and the Knowledge of you... may nothing ever detour me from that privilege!
My desire Lord is that one day when you call me to another church, whenever, wherever, that I would be able to feel 'at home' there! Selfishly I ask Lord that there would be a great deal of Cultured saints! That the worship would be a wonderful mix but of course with the good ol' Gospel that I love :) I pray that this church would have a heart for missions, youth and outreach and that it would be emphasized and not just a thought lost in the scriptures! Lord, but most importantly, I pray Lord that it would be a church that proclaims Salvation as a transformation of Character, of Life, of the Heart and those being recognized as the evidence God desires! I pray that your church that you call me to would be practicers of the Spiritual Gifts you give us--- for the edification of the church, as well as our own personal worship! I pray Lord that this would be a church that emphasizes the unity of denominations and seeks to break down the barriers! Lord my heart hurts for all of the walls placed up--- Help me to denounce the spirit of separation In Jesus Name! Lord... In your perfect timing, but for now I will remain Steadfast in knowing you! I love you so much :) I am IN Love with you! My First Love, my everything...Sincerely yours,
Ambassador for Change!
I commit to 2 things (Help me Holy Ghost):
- No longer researching different churches--- Lord, I believe when you reveal the church to me, it will be when I'm least expecting it!
- To pray for the Unity of Mind of All of the Christian denominations.
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