My Heart....

My heart is breaking within me... Only God can truly see. I'm saddened regarding the particular day that I live in. The society that surrounds me is obsessed with sex. Every place I look either has an obvious subliminal message or people having sex spread out on my computer screen...

    I just wanted to watch a wholesome movie. One without cursing, derogatory joking, sexual depictions and the such of evil... but as I scrolled down the screen, one pornography movie, turned into 3, which turned into all of my options having visual naked people fornicating. Lord, how can a young person live Holy in this world? I'm disgusted, i'm devastated and i'm nervous for my own spirit man. I don't want to fall back into the world of temporary pleasures. And I don't want my hormones to be aroused by mistake....
 
   I know in no way have a sinned, but my prayer God is that you would remove the images from my psyche that the enemy is trying to ingrain. Before i closed out of the youtube site, the top boldly announced LGBT pride. PRIDE? You think you are happy? Lesbians and Gays.... you will never know true satisfaction until you have an encounter... an intimate encounter with the God who created you! And that has nothing to do with sex. Which you use as a form of pleasure.

  I am a new creature in Christ Jesus! Called to be pure in my soul, spirit and flesh! I declare and decree that I no longer am a child who runs after the sins of the flesh; for I try to flee. God gave me a new name... He has robed me with the garment of righteousness! And I will not sadden my Everything to dwell on nothing!

Sincerely,
Purity