So! Today I placed a reservation on a hostel room nearby. A place to get away! Just God and I :) Still a bit nervous at the thought of going to someones home but knowing that God would protect me... I chose the wise route! A woman named Nancy and her husband reserve out their upstairs for anyone looking for a short term stay! So.... I asked her if she would meet me at one of the nearby coffee houses!
So I wait and wait as the minutes creep by slowly for 4:30 when she would be arriving! Yet all I can think of is this.... there are 2 things in life that paralyze the stressors that I take upon myself! 2 times when I find myself at complete rest... The first is in nature! At the beach! Somewhere in tangible presence of God-made creation! And the other..... during a bubble bath! With candles lit, worship music on! Silence as my muscles detense and I get to soak in the presence of my God! It's reviving I tell ya!
Then Nancy walks in! I stand up, we greet, grab some coffee (And my stomach had started to growl at this point, so I grabbed myself a chicken sandwhich) and we begin to talk! I can't begin to express how much peace washed over me as she answered the one question I had been waiting to ask.... "Do you believe in Jesus?"............................... Her response "Yes I do, I have been walking with the Lord since I was 19". Truly in this moment I felt like I had met my long lost sister!
We laughed, shared parts of our testimony and became more and more excited about all that God is doing! But here is just a little cherry on the top.... I use to attend an internship called the Honor Academy in Garden Valley Texas! Nancy use to attend mission trainings at that exact same place when it was owned by Keith Green! Little pieces of God's master plan :)
And guess what.... I still get my bath! See ya soon bubbles!
I accepted it!
After having a pretty rough start to my morning I gave in and decided that enough.... was enough. These past few weeks have been draining, stressful, yet full of God's beautifully designed moments of peace! And today was a day that I sensed His presence even more.
Journaling wasn't enough. Scripture just seemed like reading. Yet God's inner peace called me to bow down. Instance of peace number one. As I sat on my face before Him I sensed my shoulders relaxing, my breathing and heart rate decreasing and scripture coming to memory.... "He makes me to lie down beside green pastures.... He leads me besides still waters. He was giving me rest! And I accepted it :)
Journaling wasn't enough. Scripture just seemed like reading. Yet God's inner peace called me to bow down. Instance of peace number one. As I sat on my face before Him I sensed my shoulders relaxing, my breathing and heart rate decreasing and scripture coming to memory.... "He makes me to lie down beside green pastures.... He leads me besides still waters. He was giving me rest! And I accepted it :)
Lord.... You're Holy
As I sit here in my lazy boy, arm propped up, stomach full of corn beef hash.... I'm feeling at rest. This past week was one full of ups and downs... but plain busyness. Yet now i'm sitting still. Davy Flowers in my hearing worshiping.... inviting me to consider the beauty of my Savior. I'm still.... present. Thankful!
And I'm here with my gram who was just released from the hospital 2 days ago. Percocet has become her comforting friend and the father has become her peace. I'm so thankful she is still her! And we are still...
Wooster Community Hospital vs University Hospital.... New prayer request before the Lord!
Father, I trust you and I know that you will direct my path in you! Be glorified!
And I'm here with my gram who was just released from the hospital 2 days ago. Percocet has become her comforting friend and the father has become her peace. I'm so thankful she is still her! And we are still...
Wooster Community Hospital vs University Hospital.... New prayer request before the Lord!
Father, I trust you and I know that you will direct my path in you! Be glorified!
My 24th Birthday
O what a day that has yet to begin. Here I sit waiting for others to arrive and for the festivities to begin... but in these few moments I have prior, Lord I want to tell you that I love you. 24 years... what a number. And while i've only been walking as your child for 8 of those, I feel as though you have been every piece of me. The very wire that's held me together. The touch of Grace. The still small voice in mt ear. I simply love you......
Father :) Today was a rainy day. As the birthday calls rolled in from my family, some that felt forced and some that were heartfelt, I was pricked at the heart of how I should look solely upon you and not expect others to celebrate this day the way that I see fit. Help me to see how the thought is what matters most. Then I smile much bigger as you've blessed me with such a wonderful Best Friend who has celebrated with me and in times when I didn't feel like it, celebrated for me! And of course my wonderful sister Edrea :) O how much of a joy it was to hear her voice!!!!
My Lord :) With all of my heart, I thank you for the life you've lived in me. Today, I thank you for loving, liking, adoring and caring for me. Father, I wouldn't have made it without you. 24 yrs... 24 yrs.... Lord, there's been many tests and trials but none of them compare when I stop and feel your warm hand wrapped around heart. Your love holding my hand :) I'll never stop loving you. I give you the next 24 yrs of my life.... just to spend one day with you :)
You have my heart, take and use it however You desire :)
Father :) Today was a rainy day. As the birthday calls rolled in from my family, some that felt forced and some that were heartfelt, I was pricked at the heart of how I should look solely upon you and not expect others to celebrate this day the way that I see fit. Help me to see how the thought is what matters most. Then I smile much bigger as you've blessed me with such a wonderful Best Friend who has celebrated with me and in times when I didn't feel like it, celebrated for me! And of course my wonderful sister Edrea :) O how much of a joy it was to hear her voice!!!!
My Lord :) With all of my heart, I thank you for the life you've lived in me. Today, I thank you for loving, liking, adoring and caring for me. Father, I wouldn't have made it without you. 24 yrs... 24 yrs.... Lord, there's been many tests and trials but none of them compare when I stop and feel your warm hand wrapped around heart. Your love holding my hand :) I'll never stop loving you. I give you the next 24 yrs of my life.... just to spend one day with you :)
You have my heart, take and use it however You desire :)
With All Energy....
So here I am.... on my couch with a stuffy nose, wet hair and a tired body. Mentally my mind feels dull with a lack of knowledge. Physically I'm a bit tired from this stinking sinus infection. Lastly spiritually I feel... like the fire has totally been put out.
Just a week ago I was in Kansas City Missouri, experiencing the tangible presence of God like I hadn't in a long time. Sorround ed around 15,000 others who were passionately praising Jesus and laying at His feet. We were all on one accord and as the Body of Christ we interceded in a way that I never have before ..... God you revealed to me revelation after revelation after revelation and then I came home.
It's seemed silent here.... Rather the only thing I can here is the blowing of my nose. Why Lord? Why don't I feel like doing anything special in your pres3nce? Why am I content with reading your Word alone? What within me has shifted?
I convince myself that you are saying rest and prepare for your last 3 months beloved...... but Lord I want to meet with you! I don't want to go back to school feeling tired. I want to go back prepared for the battle!
Can I ask that of you Lord? That you would please return my physical energy so that I might be able to prepare in my Spirit to meet with you at the battlefield!
I anticipate you are going to do great things: I want to be able to loft my hands win all strength!
I love you Jesus.... you are the lifter of mu head!
Just a week ago I was in Kansas City Missouri, experiencing the tangible presence of God like I hadn't in a long time. Sorround ed around 15,000 others who were passionately praising Jesus and laying at His feet. We were all on one accord and as the Body of Christ we interceded in a way that I never have before ..... God you revealed to me revelation after revelation after revelation and then I came home.
It's seemed silent here.... Rather the only thing I can here is the blowing of my nose. Why Lord? Why don't I feel like doing anything special in your pres3nce? Why am I content with reading your Word alone? What within me has shifted?
I convince myself that you are saying rest and prepare for your last 3 months beloved...... but Lord I want to meet with you! I don't want to go back to school feeling tired. I want to go back prepared for the battle!
Can I ask that of you Lord? That you would please return my physical energy so that I might be able to prepare in my Spirit to meet with you at the battlefield!
I anticipate you are going to do great things: I want to be able to loft my hands win all strength!
I love you Jesus.... you are the lifter of mu head!