Sometimes I think about the place where I am and I wonder if its just me. Alone to do a mighty work for the Lord. Set apart to silence my soul, my heart , my voice. 'Try your best to live a quiet life before men....' But in my quietnes, I still desire intimacy with my brothers and sisters in Christ. There is no fellowship like that of like spirit!
Lord, I look forward to this day! Our first day out! I don't know what to imagine, but I know you will do amazing things. I decrease that you may increase! You are worthy!
In a foreign land!
" Psalm 62: 6"
"He alone is my rock and my salvation; he is my fortress, i will not be shaken"
This morning i awoke at 10:15, give or take a few seconds and i stretched out my wings and my legs and counted to ten.. then i said "Good morning Jesus"... Cleared my throat and said it once again.... I then proceeded to turning my computer on, opening my bible and heating up my three packets of oatmeal 'Peaches and Cream'(did i need that much, no!!!!! I just felt super hungry) After my computer had begun, i turned on my Joyce Meyer podcast and listened to 3 sermons called 'What's been on your mind'...
One hour later, i finished and it was so amazing. She spoke on having a mindset that lived above the ground. She said that the way be live our lives in the wilderness will determine just how long we will be there.... That guarding our hearts isn't just a one time thing, but its something that we are forced to do repetitively!!!! And the list just goes on and on!!!
So in saying all that, i had an amazing quiet time this morning, and what i took from it all was that when the wilderness forces itself into our lives, which it will, because Satan wants to steal our joy, those are the moments when we must tell Satan that he is a liar and we have the victory!
Ok.... if you know me, i am a happy person... truthfully! Not much scares me, or saddens me or causes me to give up.... though i am not saying that sometimes i don't have to rebuke satan! Because i do!!!
But, being here at Ursuline College has been amazing, i love this school because i know that the Lord has placed me here for a reason. Everyday that i wake up, i feel that i am where i am suppose to be! But today, a great amount of scholarship money was sent in for me and it made me so happy because, i just knew in my little mind that i would be receiving a refund check back today. To make a long story short, i did not receive that refund check, they actually told me that i still had a balance! O did i almost cry!!!! Yes i did...
And this is when the devil tries to shake your foundation...
He began to implant thoughts in my mind such as "Just transfer already", "Maybe you won't be able to go on your mission trip to Africa" "Forget about a car!".... and every other thought! And it hurt bad, i wanted to just sit and cry, but then i remembered what Joyce had said! It's in the wilderness that the trying times come! So i rebuked Satan in the name of Jesus Christ and i walked knowing that the Lord has already planned out my every step, and my every move. And while sitting her at my desk, he took me to Psalm 62:6 that reads " He alone is my rock and my salvation: he is my fortress: I will not be shaken" AND THAT HAS BROUGHT ME TRUE JOY!!!! My finances will fail me, friends, family and school will fail me, but what i do know, is that i have a father who will be unchanging, never abandoning and positioned! My father is my stability:)
This morning i awoke at 10:15, give or take a few seconds and i stretched out my wings and my legs and counted to ten.. then i said "Good morning Jesus"... Cleared my throat and said it once again.... I then proceeded to turning my computer on, opening my bible and heating up my three packets of oatmeal 'Peaches and Cream'(did i need that much, no!!!!! I just felt super hungry) After my computer had begun, i turned on my Joyce Meyer podcast and listened to 3 sermons called 'What's been on your mind'...
One hour later, i finished and it was so amazing. She spoke on having a mindset that lived above the ground. She said that the way be live our lives in the wilderness will determine just how long we will be there.... That guarding our hearts isn't just a one time thing, but its something that we are forced to do repetitively!!!! And the list just goes on and on!!!
So in saying all that, i had an amazing quiet time this morning, and what i took from it all was that when the wilderness forces itself into our lives, which it will, because Satan wants to steal our joy, those are the moments when we must tell Satan that he is a liar and we have the victory!
Ok.... if you know me, i am a happy person... truthfully! Not much scares me, or saddens me or causes me to give up.... though i am not saying that sometimes i don't have to rebuke satan! Because i do!!!
But, being here at Ursuline College has been amazing, i love this school because i know that the Lord has placed me here for a reason. Everyday that i wake up, i feel that i am where i am suppose to be! But today, a great amount of scholarship money was sent in for me and it made me so happy because, i just knew in my little mind that i would be receiving a refund check back today. To make a long story short, i did not receive that refund check, they actually told me that i still had a balance! O did i almost cry!!!! Yes i did...
And this is when the devil tries to shake your foundation...
He began to implant thoughts in my mind such as "Just transfer already", "Maybe you won't be able to go on your mission trip to Africa" "Forget about a car!".... and every other thought! And it hurt bad, i wanted to just sit and cry, but then i remembered what Joyce had said! It's in the wilderness that the trying times come! So i rebuked Satan in the name of Jesus Christ and i walked knowing that the Lord has already planned out my every step, and my every move. And while sitting her at my desk, he took me to Psalm 62:6 that reads " He alone is my rock and my salvation: he is my fortress: I will not be shaken" AND THAT HAS BROUGHT ME TRUE JOY!!!! My finances will fail me, friends, family and school will fail me, but what i do know, is that i have a father who will be unchanging, never abandoning and positioned! My father is my stability:)
Day 1 of training!
Hmmm.... Lord teach me how to see out of your eyes and not my own natural ones. Its different being here. Its different being a missionary living out of a hotel. Its different being surrounded by people who are not living in shanty homes. Wow Lord I am having a hard time. Jesus please help me see this place as a ripe harvest. I have been very selfish, thinking of my uncomfortableness. My desires. My my my my. I repent father. Please change me this very moment. In Jesus name, I choose to rejoice in being here! Help me find my place in you. In this ministry. I love you father, and my desire is to serve you anywhere, anytime! I continue to say yes :)
O the Red state!
Ehhhh Canada! Now time to find something to eat :)
... Wow the US dollar means nothing anymore :(
I recommend Jesus!
I recommend Jesus for those lonely times, that dose that's needed when pain steps in, that Armour that is needed to stand against the darts of the evil one. I recommend Jesus when the world walks out :) When it seems like the cares of the world begin to overtake you.
Jesus :) I'm feeling like the cares of this world are beginning to pull at the peace that you so freely give. But i know your word says that if I keep my eyes on you, you will keep me in perfect peace. You know what? I feel as though the enemy is tempting me to almost react the way the world does!!!! But you have called me to be slow in speaking, quick in listening and slow in reacting... I will take your lesson :) Thank you Lord for Peace...
Lord, I will trust in you to provide ALL my needs! Thank you Lord!
Jesus :) I'm feeling like the cares of this world are beginning to pull at the peace that you so freely give. But i know your word says that if I keep my eyes on you, you will keep me in perfect peace. You know what? I feel as though the enemy is tempting me to almost react the way the world does!!!! But you have called me to be slow in speaking, quick in listening and slow in reacting... I will take your lesson :) Thank you Lord for Peace...
Lord, I will trust in you to provide ALL my needs! Thank you Lord!
O Magnify the Lord with me, Let us exalt His name together~ Psalm 34:3
O I cannot believe the day has come. It has been two years today since I received the precious gift of the Holy Ghost!!! 2 yrs ago from today on a floor in Valencia Venezuela the Lord chose to not limit His spirit in Otisha Germany. Who am I to even be considered worthy of being one of His. The last thing I can remember before receiving the precious gift of the Holy Ghost, with evidence of speaking in an unknown tongue, was this question... "What if the Lord doesn't desire to give me His Holy Spirit? What if it's not for everyone?"....
God gives His Spirit without limit, and that is exactly what I experienced on June 26th, 2010 @ 11:30. Tarry Long, be persistent... The word says for those who hunger and thirst for righteousness, they shall be satisfied. God's Word still remains true. The Lord has blessed me with His Spirit morning after morning. His presence is so magnificent and thinking of All that He has done in these 2 years, 24 months, 96 weeks, and 672 days is totally mind blowing. Thank you Jesus for your death, burial and Resurrection. "I will extol the Lord at All times, His praise shall continuously be on my lips"
God gives His Spirit without limit, and that is exactly what I experienced on June 26th, 2010 @ 11:30. Tarry Long, be persistent... The word says for those who hunger and thirst for righteousness, they shall be satisfied. God's Word still remains true. The Lord has blessed me with His Spirit morning after morning. His presence is so magnificent and thinking of All that He has done in these 2 years, 24 months, 96 weeks, and 672 days is totally mind blowing. Thank you Jesus for your death, burial and Resurrection. "I will extol the Lord at All times, His praise shall continuously be on my lips"
Gracious Father, In every moment of my life I want to Honor you. As Paul says, All
that I am I am because of All that God is. Jesus I continuously humble myself,
not picking up a righteousness of my own. Please continue to show
me how to walk upright before you. Teaching me not to
judge others actions or the way they live before you.
Humble me and I shall be humble.
This life I live is yours. My successes and failures
I give them to you. Thank you for making Beauty out of Ashes
Lord you are sovereign. O magnify your name!
You are my strength and my fortress, in You will I trust!
~Amen